Forest of Blades and Everglades
/Y'know no amount of medication
Can’t take away the thought of you and him
I crave validation
I wish with this it was easy to skim
I told you what happened at school
You acted like you didn’t hear
I felt like a fool
Once again I’m alone something I’ve feared
I want to stay numb
So I’ll never see you choose
I’ll fade away as you’re having fun
It’s not like I got something to lose
I can’t take this anymore! I’m done
Hello the forest of blades
My skin craves the release
I’m sick of this cage
The one that stands the tease
This blood will become the Everglades
These are my last days
Will you reach into that blood?
The one I’m drowning in?
Or will I lose your touch?
As I’m buried in sin
Are you afraid to be infected as such?
I watch over above, the rain
While I’m surrounded by parts of my body
It just reminds me nothing will change
As I’m just a nobody
That I’ll never be sane
You wouldn’t care probably
How would it be if I was dead?
Would you feel remorse or relief?
Would you think of what I said?
Cause I’m closing in defeat
Ready for my deathbed
I want to become a spirit
So I can watch over
To see how you’ll deal with it
To see what you tell your mother
To see what you cherished
I never wanted to be a bother
So I’ll leave you and this life
So your burdens lifted
This isn’t worth the fight
My trauma is so twisted
I pretend that it doesn’t haunt me through the night
Even I opened about it as nothing to insist it
I don’t have a fear of heights
As my reasons are listed
I’m ready to take flight
I’ll never tell you when
But I’ll snap
It would be when lights dim
To escape this mouse trap
When I stop trying to fend
Where there’s nothing left
There’s nothing we could mend
This is my deadend
By Shayla Upperman
From: United States
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