The Love I Once Had

Pain written on a pad

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The love I once had for him is dead and gone. Oh how hard was it for him to leave me alone. Or was it’s hard for me to just leave and move on. Alone I already, was. I suppose but me being around him had me feeling like the love still can grow strong. Than again it was just me. Oh no, how silly was that lie. I thought to self about my wealth, health and happiness and realize that it’s sinking because of him. He will not and can not help me or thee. Will I let him do me this way heavens no, just let me swim. Drift off and never back stroke. Because when I sit back and toke realize how blessed I am for giving myself the strength to live on. I never think of him and that pain he’s cause or has brought to me. I thought I was in love and broken hearted but it was just me loving the wrong person, one that could not love me, the way I expected to be love. I was bamboozled and wham there I was was tricked in to his life. Not liking the lifestyle. Not knowing if I actually wanted but here I am at the end of the ropes cheering myself on to the great decision I made to move on. The love he once had will never return because the women that loved so hard, finally let go and moved on. 

By Chantel Hadley

From: United States