Becca Hulen
/ GreyThoughts.Info…say you can’t pour from an empty cup.. I’ve been pouring from my core till the end of the root and somehow keep finding more even in the endless…
By Becca Hulen
…filled with life that I drove people insane with incessant talking…
Now I find I have nothing to say and it’s weird…
By Becca Hulen
…is a death sentence to which there is no repentance… damaged so deep it’s surpasses the vein and rests within my…
By Becca Hulen
…words to unlock the cage containing your pain
I wish I could walk into the cell and absorb all the heavy
To make you weightless while my…
By Becca Hulen
…so much rage at the injustice
Rage at the love I’ve never felt
Rage at the love I thought was real
Rage at my…
By Becca Hulen
…say you can’t pour from an empty cup.. I’ve been pouring from my core till the end of the root and somehow keep finding more even in the endless…
By Becca Hulen
…filled with life that I drove people insane with incessant talking…
Now I find I have nothing to say and it’s weird…
By Becca Hulen
…is a death sentence to which there is no repentance… damaged so deep it’s surpasses the vein and rests within my…
By Becca Hulen
…words to unlock the cage containing your pain
I wish I could walk into the cell and absorb all the heavy
To make you weightless while my…
By Becca Hulen
…so much rage at the injustice
Rage at the love I’ve never felt
Rage at the love I thought was real
Rage at my…
By Becca Hulen
…reason all of my poems about you are sad
They say you can’t miss something you’ve never had
That’s a lie I can attest
You made promises and oaths that were never…
By Becca Hulen
…click of the light turning on
Someone has found me
How long this time was I…
By Becca Hulen
…talked about the pain
I’ve described graphically the scars left behind
I’ve searched for breath in closing lungs
I’ve searched for truth while being…
By Becca Hulen
…be a memory or even a dream
But I yearn for a place I once called home
Where ever it is the locations…
By Becca Hulen
…used to think there was something romantic and extraordinary about being able to feel so deeply. Like I somehow possessed a special gift to understand things at a soul level. In fact, it’s a curse. It’s earth shattering, spirit breaking, and so incredibly lonely to always be the one who loves the most. Being the one who…
By Becca Hulen
…contract she said- the words penetrated my core...
Slave to deception I will be no…
By Becca Hulen
…can you sleep while I lay awake crying
My chest is tight and anxious, always impending doom
You lay there snoring and I’m slowly dying
I’ve stared at every inch of wall in this…
By Becca Hulen
…lungs filling with air
I’ve been dying and didn’t care
Suck in a deep breath
I’ve once again cheated death
Looked around found nothing…
By Becca Hulen
… do you cope when the world catches fire
How do feel when you love a liar
When you call him on it, he rages
When he falls apart, it’s you he…
By Becca Hulen
…the fire was ignited, it could never be extinguished
Her hands are tied
Her power relinquished
Surrender or submission it no longer matters, from him, she can’t hide
A promise made, a promise kept
Even if the sentence is worse than death
After all the tears She's wept...
This addiction is worse than…
By Becca Hulen
…must I bleed to prove I love
Why must I sacrifice and compromise
While you look into my eyes and tell me lies
Why does my brain hold onto a word
Why won’t my heart believe the action
While your effort to mine is but a fraction
Am I the woman you love
Or merely a hostage
Walking on eggshells, oh so cautious
You’re smiling and playful I drop my guard
Weight on my body is abated
Though the foreboding leaves me deflated
Idealize, devalue, discard, it’s the cycle they say
No matter what I do I’m the…
By Becca Hulen
…need a host
It’s necessary to their survival
But Is it painful for him to watch you die...
His soul cries for love
While his body rages
His tongue whipping your back
And breaking your skin
The demon can only enter through a wound
Where’s the fault if he had no choice
If it was kill or be killed...
Malignancy spreads
Intent Possession
Your autonomy is gone
choices are no longer yours
You wanted to save him...
But you drowned in his despair
Now the words you speak are venomous
Fire burns inside your heart
Angry and…
By Becca Hulen
…deceitful and Cunning
Knowing your worst fears
Preying upon your doubts
Wait for it to pass
claustrophobic and anxious
Soon loneliness will become sadness
leading only to despair
Click.
the light is gone.
Like the flip of a switch,
The darkness rolls like a wave
It fears nothing, but for light
Mine unfortunately extinguished
I don’t fight it this time.
No kicking, no screaming.
No search for a candle
just lay down and hold my breath
air is thick with abandonment
No one is going to come for you.
Waiting and hoping extends suffering
You must simply close your…
By Becca Hulen
… her dark room
Heart aching, chest tight
Holding her breath involuntarily
Tears wet her face, the need to inflict pain into her arm suffocates her
Outside she hears the wind howl through the darkness
It’s calling again
She follows the whispers into the night barefoot and desperate
The trees are massive, strong, and twisted
The forest becomes more immense as she follows the winding trail
Leaves fall to the grown,
The smell of the green decomposing is powerful
Looking for familiarity in the shadows
Are there footsteps leading the way through the dirt…
By Becca Hulen