At the Tender Age...
/At the Tender Age of Six
Sometimes adults forget what it is like to be a kid. We forget that when we are that young, we have very little context for most of the events of our lives. I had no business participating in an adult alter call. But the adults that allowed it probably thought it was harmless. They didn't know the shame I experienced that day, and for many years after, believing that I was so unacceptable that even Jesus, who loves everyone, would not come near my heart. And of course, I never told them.
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It was when I was six years old at a church in my hometown, that the pastor gave an alter call to help the lost be found. He asked us to come forward so our lives might be redeemed. I didn't think I was lost, but I Didn't know the word redeemed.
But the pastor said I would talk to Jesus, ask Him to come live in my heart; He said Jesus would change everything,
give my life a brand new start. Well, I knew I could talk to Jesus, I'd done it many times before. This redeeming thing seemed easy, a talk with Jesus, and nothing more.
So I was actually quite excited, I was expecting to have fun.
So I ran headlong down the aisle, smiling, and waving at everyone.
Then, I heard the pastor say, Jesus was going to save us all from sin. He would redeem our lives for God once we asked Him to come in. So I prayed the words after the pastor., I asked Jesus to fill my heart. And I waited in anticipation for my brand new life to start.
When I felt absolutely nothing, I opened up just one eye.
Peered around the altar, and felt panic begin to rise. For, I understood what was happening, I just hoped no one else would know, that when I asked Jesus into my heart,
His answer was HELL NO!
It was on that day when I was only six, I began to feel the need to hide. And it was that day I came to understand that my friend Jesus was a lie. It was the only way my tiny mind
Could resolve the shameful conflict about why Jesus Christ would reject me at the tender age of six.
By Linda Troxell
From: United States
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