Soul Searching

Watching the light, spring rain through my window.

Am thinking of the time and space I am currently in.

Remembering turbulent and sensitive times.

I thought of running away and hiding from it.

Not once, back then, giving the future me a thought. 

Many times there was a pool of self-pity.

Was all I could muster in my head

as life did not go exactly as the plan. 

The selfish times in my journey

where I hurt others, intentional or not,

without a side look or remorse. 

In reflection, that was not the person

who I wished to be, changes had to be made.

Steps to be taken in order to grow.

Used to hide the person that I was,

never admitting low or destructive points.

What other’s would call life’s regrets.

Today, I embrace that person

as I would not be the person

I am today without those lessons. 

My thoughts now about anything

are not the same as they used to be.

Call it evolution with the years.

A little more greyer and wiser.

There has been a lot of thought

and soul searching as the person I am now. 

Moments in life have brought me here.

To this calm, serene place

and I am proud of it. 

By Andrew Scott

From: Canada