Ill-fated

I loved you, beyond belief

And you said you loved me too

Yet together we never were

Always apart, yet close at hand

We thought things would one day change

I held onto this hope for years

Constantly by your side

But never the one on your arm

I was there, even when you

Refused to acknowledge me

I soon gave up

Why be there when you were not?

Friends we stayed, even if

The underlying tension was ignored

And I tried not to let my heart break

Then, when I thought myself finally over you

You were gone

Forever

And my heart shattered

My mind fell apart

Gone were the potentials

The maybes and what-ifs

The one-days, the eventually’s

Only-ifs, time-will-tells,

And the ever hopeful promises

We would never be together

Never have a chance

Pain drags at my core

For I lied to myself

I never stopped loving you

And I probably never will.

By Mara Allan

From: United States

Website: https://medium.com/@maraallan

Twitter: MaraAllan8