Homesick

Simple Sue's thought of the day:

I live in a world I no longer recognize. I don't understand it. I don't fit in. I simply don't belong. I'm surrounded by familiar strangers. I'm a stranger lost in familiar land. There's no place like home. There's no place that's home.

I look around at this world I survive in. It fills my head with clouds and rain. My heart hurts as if it's being filled with shards of glass. I try to cry out, but no words escape my mouth. Tears are the only thing that falls out of me. So I just sit down and let them fall, hoping this time, this time they'll finally drown me.

In this world that I don't understand, people are taught to keep their friends close but their enemies closer. Keeping everyone at a safe distance is mandatory. Personal freedom only extends to the point that someone else gets offended. Everyone is encouraged to wear whatever mask they are comfortable hiding in. Who someone says they are should be accepted over who they show you they are. Truth is irrelevant. Love is psychological warfare. Success is built by using those doing the work as stepping blocks. 

With the right currency, anything can be bought. Morals, values, justice, even life, religion, freedom and people are bought and sold as tho it's common barter. The majority have gladly and willing traded in things like common sense, common courtesy and basic human rights for nothing more than a participation ribbon and a pat on the back. A pat on the back has become the way friends look for the best spot to put the knife. 

In this world where I don't belong, eye contact is suspicious behavior. A handshake, cash and a person's word are worthless. Friendship lasts only as long as benefits. Men abandon their own families and deemed heroes for showing fake affection to other people's children. Women have babies they don't want or care for. 

In this place of strangers, everyone is disposable, and nothing is freely given. Instant gratification has become the goal.  Rights come without responsibilities. Those who vowed to serve and protect determine who is seen as a criminal, who's a hero and who's a missing person never found.  Everything is accepted except what's right. What have you done for me lately is the leading mentality. Accountability turned into a blame game. Respect is determined by status. Cursive writing in which our constitution was written in is illegible, but it's crucial to be able to read between the lines. Everyone speaks in riddles, never saying what they mean or meaning what they say. 

I'm tired.... tired of surviving a world I don't belong in. I'm tired of all the hurt and ugliness everywhere. Tired of a society that lacks humanity. Tired and homesick. There's no place like home..... I miss my family, friends, and my world with a beautiful view. I don't belong here. I just wanna go home.....

By Simple Sue 

From: United States