Compassion

In my current state of affairs, I wonder about compassion. I lost my sight, regained it. Lost in one eye regains partial in another. I wonder if I am compassionate to those with fewer opportunities in my time of opportunity?

I see now. When I lost my left foot, career, and my mind, I wonder about that time to these days. I miss my mind a bit. I seek to help where I can but often fail.

Compassion they say is where your heart grows or shrinks or dies. I am sure I lost heart a long time ago. And thus I am not sure what I am to learn from this experience without a heart. Compassion needs a heart to feel. To emotionally connect to the issue. When I look at reality and see that they are pushing a 2.3 percent vaccine that damages people. When the virus kills less than 0.03 I worry that I failed to protect the future generation. Did I not stand for right?

What gets me is that the rich are pushing this on the poor. Trying to remove people that are already in pain. Did they get 3.4 trillion in stimulus money? Did the 120 billion help everyone? 600 dollars for a national debt that will cost 22500 per tax payer? While giving them 600 dollars? I look at this and realize evil has won. I am not even sure who or how to fight this evil. When corporations made out like bandits. The politicians got paid for not working. And people instead of being quarantined where up house arrest for trying to make a living? I am sure I should have done something. But what? Write congress? I did that a few times. To no avail. I wrote editorials. Again, no one printed them.

Maybe I should do something extreme? Run for office? Sure. I am running for office. No vaccination platform. All else I vote no one too. Makes reality much simpler. If I win great. If I lose when they come to kill me, I at least will have a reason for them to see me executed.

Compassion? I look and see 6.5 trillion dollars spent on the war on terrorism killing 500,000 terrorist and somehow hitting 450,000 innocent bystanders which the US government had to pay back. And I think maybe the military is not that great of a shot. Maybe we failed in protecting humanity.

I look at war. And see the Democrats pushing for civil war yet again. Burning down cities. Six to ten billion dollars’ worth of insurance fraud. The DA not prosecuting those responsible. Your home owner insurance or renter insurance has already gone up covering that cost plus a hefty profit margin increase.

I look at Libya and now see slavery there, brought to you by the first President of African decent. Do not tell me that was to help people. Compassion. I must have missed the mark. I look at Syria and read the UN report stating the US bombed Syria military claiming gas attack when the rebels that the CIA backed actually were the ones using the gas. Compassion?

I seek that word in my life and I worry I somehow misplaced that word. Did I lose the concept when HUD stole money from me? Did I lose it when my bosses told me I was not doing my job, when I showed up an hour early and finished more work than most about me? I think reality has a big issue and where that issue is I where my compassion laid down and died.

By Clinton Siegle

From: Bolivia