Second Chance
/My father passed away two days ago, these are the only words I can use to describe how I'm feeling
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There is no second chances.
There is no light before.
I dreamed my entire life of you,
Your presence to secure.
The missing pieces of myself,
That I had been longing for.
There isn't a single moment,
I would relive once more.
I tried to forgive the living,
But in death, I tallied the score.
If I can not forgive my father,
How can I be my girl's mentor?
All the regret and inhibitions,
Turned into pain and remorse.
No time to make ammends,
What were we fighting for?
You came into my life suddenly,
For the timing I felt abhor.
I reveled in my own pain,
Never even considered yours.
For the absence of my father,
Caused my life a great uproar.
Unpacking all those feelings,
Was like an empty drawer.
How could I not forgive you,
You wanted nothing more.
I made your years suffering,
Worse then I could ever bore.
I feel terrible for all the things,
I know I continued to ignore.
If only I had thought of you,
Had it in me to be mature.
I should have called you often,
I should have visited you more.
All the things I could've done,
That I can not do anymore.
Like hug you and get a wiff of,
That cologne you always wore.
Lost in life, found in death.
It's quite the metaphor.
I can't believe how this feels,
How my heart can feel so sore.
For to be taken away so soon
Is something un-wished for.
If I had a second chance,
I'd do all I could and more.
I'd tell you that I love you.
I'd mean it to the core.
If I knew the hurt I feel today,
I'd have forgiven you for sure.
By Pieces of Pisces Poetry