…life, bound by belief, held captive by ideals, imprisoned by guilt and fear; invariably trying to rectify the past, inevitably failing and bankrupting my future.
Longing for freedom, I let go of my self-bound chains. I breathe and see the present for the first time. the present, stagnant up to this point, vibrant, whirling, whispering to me, and I feel the quickening. I am overcome with a lust to be part of the brilliant matrix surrounding me, and, I let go...
By Tracey Koehler
Something I wrote when I was struggling with depression and anxiety, it's a darker piece if the meaning of it is clear.
She's always tired,
Somehow no one sees,
The battle inside her head,
She needs time but she can't control it,
Slowly it feels like her soul is slipping through the cracks and her mind is turning to ash,
Something so simple, so beautiful,
Yet her mind cannot find peace to except it,
Something her soul can't control and her mind can't expell,
It's clutches grab at her heart slowly turning it to black,
She's always so tired,
Looking for a way to slip away,
To slip from the darkness around her heart,
Because she can't take it anymore,
She's always so tired.
Trying to overcome my humility.
…certain that, before there was a you, there was a me.
I’m more important than the rest, that should be plain to see.
In order in the human pile, I must be on the top,
As others climb their ladders, but still just below me stop.
You know, if it was not for me, the “you” would have no meaning,
So get in line and follow the direction which I’m leaning.
Follow close, don’t fall behind, as we go ‘round the bend
No lifeguard waiting at life’s pool while diving in deep end.
Don’t worry, I’m your leader and I…
By James Geehring
Full of excuses, got myself thinkin’ I’m useless
Distractions are ruthless, a nuisance
Inaction so fluid, can’t help but sink in to it
Titanic demons keep screamin’, they fiendin’, dreamin’
Monstrous titans wagin’ war, done this before
Deamed victors seepin’ through the cracks beneath the door
Came through the back whisperin’ “Jack we want more”
Like shadows slidin’ ridin’ gaps in light and hidin’ in the dead of night
They’re fightin’ tryin’ to stay alive inside…