Finding Dad
/Be a part of Ryan's journey to find his dad. Was he able to find his dad or did he give his mommy a chance to fix everything like always.
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Back then I thought I had multiple fathers and only one mother. While playing on the block with kids from the street one day, Chris came up to me. Chris lived two blocks away from me and was always into music. That day was Chris's birthday and his dad gifted him a flute. I remember being envious but I wasn't sure about what. Was I sad that he got a flute or the fact that he knew who his father was?
"Mom, Who is my dad?"
"Honey, I am your dad. What happened?"
"No, You are mom and there should be a dad. Everyone has a dad, where is he? Does he not like me, Mom?"
“Honey, Give mommy a chance, okay? I’ll find Dad”
I remember seeing Mom hiding behind the bush and puffing a cigarette with tears filled in her eyes. I was too naive back then and thought that Mom doesn't like this question so I never asked her where my dad was.
For the next couple of years, I called everyone my dad whoever used to sleep with Mom at night. Chris had told me that mom and dad sleep together so I figured out that since Mom loves me so much, God has blessed me with one Mom and multiple dads.
On New Year’s eve when Times Square was overcrowded by people who were celebrating the eve with their loved ones, I was left alone. That night was the last time I ever saw my mom. The next day, when everyone congratulated each other for the new year, I suddenly became an orphan on the chilling streets of NYC. I remember stealing cat foods to eat for some weeks but soon I was taken by an orphanage. There, I was told that the men mom used to sleep with weren’t my father, she slept with them to buy us some food. After that incident, I tried to look for her but I couldn’t find her.
Today I am graduating from high school and after all these years, I received a letter addressed to me from Mom saying she finally found Dad.
I opened the letter and it read:
Hi, Ryan.
I miss you. I just wanted to let you know that Mom is sorry for leaving you alone. Mom couldn’t tell you because you were not supposed to be born and because of this, Dad left both of us. I am sorry, my child. Thank you for giving mommy a chance.
Regards,
Mom.
I read her letter and thought,
Should I still look for my dad? Should I give him a chance to come back? Because, Mom always said, “Give mommy a chance.” Should I give Dad a chance too?
By Renu Thapa
From: Nepal
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