Marina Vos
/ GreyThoughts.InfoThis is a short post, mostly about what my life has been like lately
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…not going to lie. I've been going offline, things haven't been right, inside is a mess, trying only seems like I'll miss. I'm pushing but life keeps throwing me back, the past keeps resurfacing, memories I thought were hidden now lay bare, I dug that whole and now they're out, things keep seeping in to my everyday and I…
By Marina Vos
A short story based on the things that live deep inside my mind
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…you wipe your tears today, yeah you didn't hear me walking into the kitchen.
I looked at you and asked what's wrong hating the cold counter top under my hand.
You looked back at me and said it's just been a long day and that you are tired, if I could go back I…
By Marina Vos
A quote a friend told me, we're all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids suicide isn't the answer
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It started with scrapes,
Just little things,
No one noticed not even I,
A little scratch here and there,
It started with sleepless nights,
It started with nightmares of my own demise,
Soon I fall under the knife,
Soon I forgot how to live,
One cut, just to see,
Was the pain truly that bad?
Do I regret it?
Was my dreams telling me to love the Scarlet within,
Blood is thicker than ink after all,
So I drew road mabs along my legs,
With a knife I paved…
I'm a brown eyed girl, used and abused,
used to the lies and used to the pain,
Crying inside because outside doesn't matter,
Smiling because no one needs to know,
Telling lies of perfect lives,
Hiding the truth behind my eyes,
I am a brown eyed girl,
Hurt and torn,
I'll keep fighting,
Because I know the pain,
From not being heard,
I am a brown eyed girl who bleeds alone.
What would you do?
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…will you do if I told you, I'm dieing under pressure,
I'm drowning on thine air,
Would you try and save me?
Or would you watch me go?
If I die tonight will you care?
Will you cry?
Or will my loss make your life better?
Brighter?
Happier?
Would you save me
Save me
If I cut too deep,
If the blood poured out,
Would you try to help?
Or would you smile as I fade into shadows?
Would you save me?
Save me,
This time,
I'm walking out,
What would you do if I told you,
I'm dieing under…
A smile can hide more than just anger
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This emotional wall between my head and my heart is growing ever tall,
I can't breath anymore I've lost more than I bargained for,
I've been trying to out live my past but it's starting to out live me, I'm unable to see why I fight,
It's bloodshed and war all around me, Tears stream down my face,
With a foggy mirror and almost no light,
I watch the knife slip down my face tracing lines of Scarlett pain,
Blood red lines run down my chest,
Echoes of hope lost in vain,
Deeper and deeper the life cuts, But the pain still isn't enough,
The words they hurt more than my blood,
Spilled onto white porcelain floors,
Secret voices they speak of deadly truths, Masked by years of lies,
Deeper into my skin the Scarlett lines have thinned,
My eyes are open but my brain is fading, The light fades by words too,
The Scarlett rivers run dry.