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One Last Goodbye

Once upon a time your love was my saving grace.

The world we shared was a beautiful place!

Pain from my past had brick by brick built a wall.

The amazing way you loved me, with ease made it fall.

No one compared, you had my heart, soul and mind.

My best friend, my soulmate, nothing left to find.

We made magic and memories, laughter and love!

Nothing meant more to me. Not below or above.

I never in a million thought I'd find my once in a lifetime.

It was US against the world, we were partners in crime.

We were drinking buddies, running buddies and so much more.

Some loves whisper softly but ours was a loud Rawr!

I was a smart ass bitch that challenged you.

You were a pestering ass that challenged me too.

We saw the best in each other and made our world better together.

All in! Boo Bear and Foxy Brown, betting on forever!

Times grew hard and our hills became  steep.

We began to kill what we had meant to keep.

Your guilt and pride, alone, you struggled to carry.

My shame and fears, alone, I tried to just bury.

As time together passed the distance between US grew.

Instead of better together life became hell with you.

My best of times that we shared and created.

Became my worst of times feeling cheated and jaded.

Magic was just lies and deceit, placing a scarlett letter upon memories.

On opposing sides friendship falls, partners divided becoming enemies.

We were the king and the queen reduced to Hatred and Chaos.

In the blame game we played our kingdom became our loss.

Once the man who calmed my storms and eased my fears,

Became the source of my pain, blood and tears!

Once the woman you counted on to be your biggest fan,

Became your voice of criticism, making you feel like less than a man!

You were fighting a battle, lost in your own head.

So much pain you inflicted from words left unsaid.

Standing alone you stood against me, the world and mostly yourself.

Your love you took back, packed up tight, storing it away on a bottom shelf.

I was fighting my demons, lost in my own head.

So much pain I inflicted from cruel words that I said.

Standing alone I stood against you, the world but mostly myself.

I hid away my love for you, out of sight on a bottom shelf!

Between all the "he said" and "she said" and the "just fuck it all to hell",

The only thing that was left for us was saying farewell.

So you went your way and I went mine.

Convincing ourselves we'd be just fine.

With broken promises, lies and deceit.

We burned our bridges and felt the heat!

Leaving only ashes and smoldering embers.

Trying to forget a love too painful to remember.

We accepted defeat not knowing the love wouldn't die.

The days went so slowly but still time crept by.

Time heals all wounds, or so they've said.

These wounds just kept bleeding out memories with every tear shed.

So ashamed and broken from what our love became.

Broken and changed, you, me, US, never the same.

We used words as weapons, always armed and prepared!

It's easy now to see how neither could believe the other one cared.

Oh but these beautiful memories of when our defenses were down!

Still tangled up in you, my king without a crown.

Even without you, to you I'll always belong.

Toxic together but apart, everything was wrong.

Days turned to weeks and weeks into months, as slowly time went by.

Still nothing got better, nothing felt right. I wasn't alive but I couldn't die.

In the sweet comfort of sleep I'd feel your love once more.

Waking up to remember you walking out the door.

Despite the Hatred and Chaos and the demons we fed.

Still drawn to one another till face to face we were led.

Seeing you again, so painfully great! Numbness gone, beginning to feel.

Brought to life, resurrected from death,  kiss me now so I'll know its real!

What do we do with this last chance that we found?

No matter the love, years of war can't be rewound.

Amnesia is not granted and the past can't be changed.

Broken pieces stay broken even when rearranged.

After all the love and the hate, between he and I,

They'll be no happily ever after, just one last goodbye.

By Simple Sue

From: United States