Grey Thoughts

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Lost Love Found

Once time spilled into midnight,

the echo of the July fireworks closed

the curtains on independence.

The evenly trimmed grass

on Franklin Park spread for miles

and so did the attendees

on lawnchairs and picnic blankets

with coolers of drinks.

Erin, my life’s love, would love this.

I closed my eyes and inhaled

the Jo Malone on her neckline.

I missed her, but she had plans

that included living in Carolina.

I sipped vodka inside my water bottle

and moved my sleeve across my mouth.

I found myself amidst

a stream of people

leaving Franklin Park.

Traffic headlights illuminated

the crosswalk.

People hooted and yelled in cars;

their red eyes told

the story of an evening

sure to leave a splitting headache

come morning.

I waited for the green light to cycle

through and moved toward

the crowded parking lot.

Traffic flowed in both directions

with music screaming lyrics

over dashboard confessionals.

Speakers thumped as they

disseminated a song’s beat,

adding to the tranquil atmosphere.

Sulfur from firecrackers filled

the air like the first time I met

my old flame, Erin.

I smoked a cigarette

to burn anxiety.

I came alone this year because

getting out broke Erin’s absence.

Something about watching pyrotechnics

pulled at something inside me.

I loved watching the fireworks.

And so did Erin.

A breeze moved across an overcast, dark sky.

A gentle wind filtered Jo Malone to my nostrils.

My heart thumped in my chest.

It couldn’t be;

but what if it was?

I felt a woman’s eyes study my presence.

I turned and spotted a face.

I saw Erin, or at least I thought I had.

But it couldn’t be her.

Butterflies bumped around

in my stomach before I put my finger

on what I thought I saw.

Perhaps I saw what I wanted to see.

I shone the light of self-reflection inside of me.

“Seth,” a familiar voice said.

I stopped and twisted around. “Erin?”

“I owe you an apology,” she said.

Erin still had an hourglass frame

and firm legs under tight tan shorts.

Her hair darkened, maybe with time.

Erin’s deep green eyes pulled me in

as they eased into a soft gaze.

“Get your degree?” I said.

“I did,” she said, dipping her gaze. “But I studied more about us tangled in bedsheets.” Erin raked her fingers through her hair. “God. I couldn’t get you out of my head. Every love song reminded me of you. Of us.”

No weatherman called for rain, but the thick clouds released sprinkles to hide our tears, and thunder started as if God were clapping.

“You look…” Erin studied me. “Amazing.”

“What is it they say?” I said. “If you love someone, you’ll let them go.”

“And if it was meant to be, they’ll return.” Erin motioned. “And here I am.”

We kissed through flash floods, and her lips made me sixpence all the wiser to kiss her forever.


By Andy Cooper

From: United States

Twitter: AC0040