A poem about betrayal and loss of trust

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I once thought you would never do me wrong again

I had little faith as it was or trust in men

You took my insecurities and used them against me

Now I’m sat here questioning why I was too blind to see

You’d threaten and take from me all I was proud to have in life

You didn’t just stab me in the back with your knife

I always supported you and was there when you needed me to be

Yet I’m the one sat here wondering how you could do this to me

You don’t say sorry or even acknowledge what you’ve done

I may as-well have loaded the bullets myself in the gun

I forgave you once when you played me like a fool

And still was a friend to you ..how could you actually be so cruel?

In all your mistakes I’ve always been there and supported you

Checked in when your down like friends are supposed to do

But you used and took advantage of that and led me down a winding path

I hope at the expense of my feelings and pain you’ve had a good laugh

Lies, deceit and hurt that’s all that’s left

I’m the one picking up the pieces yet still wish you the best

I wish I could purposely hurt you like you hurt me

But you know that’s not who I will ever be

Lies, deceit and hurt and yet you don’t even care

How is that even fair?

You may have taught me a lesson which I needed to learn

But you didn’t have to hurt me on purpose in return

I always tried to understand you and figure you out

Now all that’s left is nothing but doubt

Did you even mean the words you said?

So many questions left in my head

Lies, deceit and hurt yet I thought you had changed

I wish years ago we would have become estranged

The saddest part is if I knew what I do now

You know full well I’d have said no worries and worked it out some how

I would have supported you no matter what and always been there

Because even without your love as a person for you I still cared

My loyalty ran that deep I just wanted you to be happy and for you to smile

If only for a little while

You didn’t have to do what you have done

But I hope in the game you played you had fun

Lies deceit and hurt

I never deserved that

To be called awful names and told I’m a rat

When it was you all along who was playing a game

Why was it me who you tried to blame?

Lies deceit and hurt

Nothing but disconcert

But don’t worry without your apology I’m doing just fine

Sooner or later someone had to draw that line

By Lady Arabella

From: United Kingdom

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