When love goes wax

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My bad emotions have values

Cos it create infinitely important poems

The worse a calamity befalls me 

The more potent the energy to write from

My ink bleeds on the paper

Too much words to dish out like a letter

Tonight, laying on my bed

Feeling like am already dead

I thought

This world is not for me

Cos am lost in thought

Wow, unsettled storms in my head

Neurons striking at a fast pace

Uncontrollable deranged thoughts

Cos I hide in the anguish veiled

Which is impossible for me to break down the weight

So alone I stay in this pain

This internal war turns eternal fate

Hey you! 

Do not tried to blame me yet

Cos behind my scars lies a deep story

Of a hurt that cause me to weep

A pain that left a reminder 

Of a wound that cut too deep

Although there is no relieve from this pain

It is the souls stamped forever

Cos no matter what I do

The pain is still a jailer 

Is love a crime? 

Cos am jail in your love

Is falling in love an offences

Cos I was scorn for your love

You create a hole in me filled with tears

And now my pillow get wet

Though I rate you at the top

But you rate me at the bottomless pit

I treated you as a Queen

But you treated me as a stink rags

I love you with all my soul

But you tore it with tears

Although they said 

Am under a spell bound

But I never care

Cos your love cover me 

Like a cloud cover the sky

My love for you is pure

But you mix it with torn

This make me to burst into tears

Think of  you make my day seems blurry

Think of  you make my worries more dark

I tried to reach for you across the sea

But I can find you

I reach for you with a love meant to be

But you are no where to be found

I reach for you to wrap you in my arm

But I thought I was wrong

I reach for you to keep you safe from the harms 

But you harm me with words

I hope you filled with joy each day

But you add a little bit of sorrow

I hope our love lights our way

But you make it go wrong way

I hope our love forever true

But you make it a false

The more I tried to do so 

The more I failed 

Cos you make it a vanity

By Emmatobs

From: Nigeria

Instagram: emmatobs9