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Fresh Start

The click of the light turning on

Someone has found me

How long this time was I gone


Eyes blurry and sensitive from years in the dark

Who are you and how did you find me

It touches me and suddenly a spark


“It’s me” it says, “I’ve come to take you home”

“Who’s me” I thought my memory foggy

As far as I know I’ve always been alone


I want to feel safe but my head says I’m in danger

I panic and plead take me back

I don’t know you, you are a stranger


My mental state is questionable I was in prison

I’m out of my mind it’s Stockholm syndrome


Why is freedom so terrifying when you’ve been trapped for so long

Why do I feel like I’m doing something wrong

The trauma bond is fucking strong


“It’s me” is so soft and so gentle

I don’t even know if it’s real I’ve probably gone mental

All I know is I’m warm and it holds me so tight

If leaving was wrong I don’t want to be right


Where have you been all of my life

“I was waiting for you to be ready, to be my wife”

My vision finally clears

and I say, “I’ve waited for you for years”


I have slipped away so many times

The debt is so heavy to pay for my crimes

It’s time to free myself from the chains of the lies

You showed me I am stronger than I realize


Thank you for finding me and showing me the way

From darkness to colors my world no longer grey

Working together we will always find a way


My love and my protector

I promise we’ll be together

The past is behind me though healing is hard

My heart is all yours it’s just a little scarred


By Becca Hulen

From: United States