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For My Own Wellbeing…

For My Own Wellbeing I Banish The Past and Invoke My Power...

To those who don’t survive on self deprecation

To those who don’t thrive in despair

To those who can’t hack the wear and tear

The darkness swallows me up

While the void simply beckons

Can you hear it? Exactly how the silence deafens?

Can you even imagine the prison…

Being chained to a wall inside your head

The devil just isn’t content until you’ve bled…

Your submission is demanded

Held hostage by an unspoken oath

All of your insecurities completely unclothed

How did a lonely heart lead to my death?

Danger simply disguised as butterflies

Promises dancing on a tongue of lies

The evil that surrounds me wont let me go

The fear seeping from my pores always lingers

You can’t escape the devastation wrapped around Lucifer’s fingers

You silently judge my lack of ambition

You loudly argue I do it for attention

You cant comprehend my paralyzing fear of rejection

Have you fought a war against another’s demons

Have you been stalked by parasites afraid of the shadows

Have you been overwhelmed by the haunting of echos

Opening your mouth to scream with a hand around your throat

Walking the bottom of the river styx carrying a stone

Knowing that you will never be alone

The past haunting me while the sins enthrall me

Demanding I agree to sit on the throne of deception…

I didn’t even know I was there at the moment of inception

My soul has been trafficked my will remanded…

The Underground Railroad must exist to intercede

My freedom is mine I have loudly decreed…

By Becca Hulen

From: United States